It turns out that this blog is still alive (?)

Heya,

Woah, it’s been so long— *clearing the pile of dust*

Yeah, I admit, I’ve been slacking off too much from writing. Where did all my enthusiasm go I wonder //sigh// I actually had a lot of things to write about. But the over-thinking side of me keeps on getting in my way (and also the laziness I can’t seem to get rid of). I always knew that I am the type of person who tends to over-think what would happen after I said (or write) something, the results of my acts, in a negative way. But sometimes I could go ahead and just say anything I had in my mind (which is not always a good stuff) or do what I feel I wanna do. Sometimes I got the feeling of accomplishments, but there were also time where I regretted it.

The thing is, I know that everything I said and done would have led to some results. Be it a good result or a bad ones. But that is the reality I have to face when I’d decided on something. I can’t let myself keep on worrying over what might happened because it would never lead me anywhere. I can’t say that I am the most positive person but I am not a negative-gloomy-type of a person too.

I don’t even know what I’m babbling about but I errr ummmm guess there’s some points could be taken out of this post. Huh ?

…. //runs//

P/S: … this is what happened when guilty strike over not posting for too long. Lel.

???

Amie

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Farewell.

We finally came to an end.

 

Part of me were relieved,

for it had caused me so much pain,

being left without something to hold on.

 

But part of me,

were a bit lonely,

for having to let go of this feelings I have kept so long.

 

We had a start,

we did have our own version of joy and happiness along the way.

 

And now is the time for us to stop.

And move forward with a new aim.

 

Thank you,

and goodbye.

The End,

Amie. 

 

Stopped.

Clock is ticking

Time passes

Season changes

Yet our pace is still

Remained there

Unmoved 

Distance is growing far apart

You were running away

And I decided to leave

So how

Can our path intertwined again ?

Something that is suffered by me,

For some period of time,

It’s over now, but

I can’t stop thinking about the odds

That might occur if I took a different path.

Mixed,

Amie.

Hello 2014 !

Heya, it’s Amie ! *waves*

So, how’s the new year’s celebration going on for you guys ? *krikk krikk*

Yup, I still doubt there’ll be anyone reading this hahaha.

Just wanna talk about the new year thingy before the first day of 2014 end heee.

Another year has passed, another year came to be walked through.

More things are going to happen, more challenges are waiting for us, more memories are going to be created.

I wonder if I have grown a bit throughout this past year. Hmm. Maybe I’ve somehow changed, more or less ? Hahaha.

New year’s resolutions ? Nahhh I never had those kind of things. Hahaha it’s not that I don’t want to achieve anything or doesn’t have any goal in life or etc etc. It’s just, hmm I just don’t go listing for what I want or anything /lol/ But then, to those out there who always have new resolution and somewhat working hard to fulfill it, you have all my respect ! *bows* m(__)m

Hmm well, maybe I do have some things to achieve and change but it just came out of my conscious and not because of the year changed or something hahaha. What I can for now is that I want to be a better person, in every aspect. I should really ditch my laziness (in doing everything *sigh*), increase my awareness towards my surrounding (though in certain things, ignorance is really a bliss), talk less (hmmm I should really try to do this), be consistent in doing something (hmm yeah), and some other things.. (which I forgot what they are—) aahh ! And yeah, try to increase my memory capacity (I really am easy to forget about things—haishh).

So, I wish all of you all the best in walking this new year, and to myself too heee. In everything you do, try to enjoy them as much as you can. Create new memories, so that one day you can reminiscing them again and feel satisfied with yourselves 🙂 

Happy New Year ! Have a blast people ! *fireworks* >.<

Just--- Google's main page for 2014. Haha it's cute (?)

Just— Google’s home page for 2014. Haha it’s cute (?)

P/S : I’m in the middle of my final exams. Which is another reason why I’m not too into celebrating the new year *sobbss* Anyway, wish me for the best ! Heeeee

Continuing the life’s journey,

Amie.

Dearest, Friend.

I can never forget our first encounter,

We’re so different, yet we are so similar.

It’s not long before we became so close,

And a beautiful friendship is established.

We’re like a twins,

To the point that people keep on mistaking you and me.

And we would just laugh,

Saying that it’s just ridiculous,

That we’re so different in so many ways.

And that is when we realized,

We completed each others.

Dearest friend,

We had built lots of golden memories together,

They’re too valuable and I wouldn’t want to trade it for anything.

But then,

What happen to us?

Why is there sudden distance that emerged between us?

Why wouldn’t you turn,

When I’m calling out your name?

Why wouldn’t you held out your hand,

When I’m trying hard to reach you?

Where had it gone wrong?

This relationship have been scarred,

And I don’t know,

How to fix it.

This loneliness started to crept in me

When I realized we started to drift away.

I’m afraid, of not being able to create new memories with you.

I’m afraid, of not being able to go back as we used to.

I’m afraid, of not being able to share the laughter with you.

I’m afraid, of losing you.

Dearest friend,

Please,

Help me brighten up this friendship again,

Please,

Help me save this friendship,

Because I don’t wan to live in regret

of losing such a beautiful friendship

I have with you.

Dearest friend,

I’m sorry.

Reminiscing the joy and laughter we shared,

Amie.

Blue Spring Ride.

Heya peeps, Amie’s here ~! *wave*

Yeah, it’s been quite some times since the last post (as usual *sigh*). The thing is, it’s been a very hectic period for me. With the tons of assignments reaching its deadlines, studies, the upcoming second test, and the finals ! Gahhhh !!! *flips table* x(

Enough of the ranting, or it’s never going to end.

So what am I about to post actually ? Hehehe.

I wanna share about this quite amazing (wow !) manga I just read. And being too emotionally attached too. (oh yeah, did I mention before that I like, no, LOVE manga and anime ? —- )

So, let’s start shall we ?

The title of the manga is, Ao Haru Ride (also known as Aoharaido) or in English, Blue Spring Ride (the reason behind this post’s title >.<) by Sakisaka Io. Its genre is shoujo so basically it evolves the relationships around the high schoolers. It’s been kinda hard to find a good shoujo manga lately, but, this manga really piqued my interest.

It’s about this girl, Yoshioka Futaba, a first year in high school who acts like a messy girl purposely. The reason is, she didn’t want to be shunned by the girls like in her middle school days due to her polite attitude and cuteness which attract the guys. She never wanted to suffer the loneliness she felt cause she was left without any girl friends.

Well then, she succeeds and have two friends (duh). But then during the second semester, she met with her old crush, her crush three years ago during her first year of middle school, Tanaka Kou ! But now he is known to be Mabuchi Kou due to his family’s reason. She never forgets about him because he left the middle school too sudden without saying anything. And she keep on thinking the odds of what might happened between him if he hadn’t leave before. But now, turns out that he is no longer the soft and gentle guy she knew before. He has changed, a lot.

And what troubled her the most after meeting him again, he told her that they shared the same feelings before, but that was in the past. And it cannot worked out now.

And of course, there are others conflict started to arise, third party, girls who like Kou, guy who has a feeling for Futaba etc.

— and so start a new story between them.

So, that’s a short (?) synopsis I can give. Wanna know what happens, go read the manga ! It’s worth it !

Next, what makes me feel so deeply emotionally attached to this manga ? Well the reason is, I could see myself in this story. The relationship that never gets its chance to starts, ended so suddenly. Somehow, I can understand Futaba’s feelings in this. It hurts more when you kept on thinking for the odds that might happens such as ‘what if I had the chance to convey my feelings to him before ?’ ‘What if he had truly tells his feelings before ?’ ‘What if there’s no one had stepped into our story and messed the flow ?’ What if what if what if — it’s just, too painful to have these kind of thoughts. Yes, it happens in my previous relationship. And that brings to the previous emotional posts of mine.

—- if I were to write about this, it might takes few pages, so, I’ll stop here for now. Basically, I just wanna say that I could see myself in this manga (lol, repetitive statement).

Hence, if you’re curious to know about the manga or feeling kind of interested, go read it ! It’s good, really ! The art is nice too (well, it is a shoujo manga).

Well then, I’ll stop here. Bye ~

p/s : here’s one of the scene in the manga (all credits are given to the mangaka). Awww ~ I ship you both, Futaba and Kou ! ❤ ❤ ❤

futabaxkou

One of my favourites ! ❤ ❤ ❤

— and an artwork with the manga’s tagline (?)—

'Scent of the after rain... I heard your pulse, I saw the light'

‘Scent of the after rain…
I heard your pulse, I saw the light’

Emotionally attached,

Amie.

An Untold Story.

There’s this story,

About you and me,

About how you came into my life,

About how you stole my heart,

About how you messed up with my mind,

Yes, it’s all revolved around you.

From nothing, to something,

Regardless if it’s special or not,

You’re something to me.

An indescribable something.

Why would you take a place in my life,

if you’re gonna leave it empty ?

Why would you capture my heart,

if you’re gonna let it trapped ?

Why would you create memories in my mind,

if you’re gonna hurt me by reminiscing ?

I was left, clueless and crying in pain.

This is the untold story, of how your existence became so significant to me.

 

Digging the buried memories,

Amie.